I Like being busy. Anything unimportant is futile. You just go. The moment where you just stop in the middle of a hectic day and see,smell,hear,feel the environment around you. just knowing you have a purpose, knowing you are needed. & at the very end of the day you have a little time to enjoy the simple things in life. Finally, and i mean FINALLY, you just fall into a fluffy bliss of mattress,comforters sheets and crisp pillows. You have no energy to toss and turn in bed, you just, drift away into dreamland.<3
Sometimes i wish that certain someone could read my mind.…Okay no i dont. But just the thought of them knowing what you’re thinking about and not having to put it into words and telling them and worry about acting natural. It’s kind of a nice thought. Of course, i hope this doesn’t Actually happen,it would be very, very embarrassing. x]
I get frustrated with myself when i start to fall for someone even as bad as you don’t want to. First you see how Handsome/gorgeous they are & How amazing their swag is. Then you mentally smack yourself realizing that they’re out of your league. But you just can’t help yourself. You guys start to talk and you can’t resist laughing at even the driest jokes they make. You try to deny the butterflies.
After you spend an amazing time with them you can’t help but admit to yourself that this person is the person that you want to space out and think of, this is the person you want to blush about, this is the person you can’t resist skipping your heartbeat to. But after it all you just remember what you knew in the beginning, this person is out of your league,this person is not for you.
HAHAHAHHAHAH! Dont ever label yaself my daddy unless you paying for a roof over my head, paying for my phone bills, giving me shopping money , paying for my car& gas. &alla that good shit.
I always have a need, an urge and a serious craving for you. I think about you in class, while im walking, when im spaced out. It’s not like im in love with you nor do i barely even like you anymore. But im always thinking about you. I have a zillion questions for you. I Want to talk to you so things would go back how they use to be. And the rarity of seeing you doesnt help anything. But what’s most painful is when i do see you. Suddenly i dont have the need anymore. the questions i wanted to ask become meaningless. I’m not nervous or scared of you but i cant find the strength to say things or joke like we use to. The want for the friendship i wanted to re-kindle, vanished.
— Regina Brett
Hm, sometimes I try to remind myself about this, just cause I think it helps me be more appreciative at times when I need to be.